During my cultivation journey, I have experienced so many things and have often heard from other practitioners about different phenomena such as the attachment to doing things. But when you really experience them yourself, it is another thing than to just hear about it.

I was afraid of making mistakes because that in turn meant loss of face. Later, I understood that I had too little faith in my fellow practitioners. When they see my numerous mistakes, they will react according to the Fa, because they are disciples of the same Master. Why the fear? Our Master encourages us to go our own way, and my understandings in the Fa show me the way to guide my fellow practitioners well: by cultivating openly and sincerely, as our revered Master teaches us.

I know that the desire to show oneself off  is a very bad thing, it's very vicious, and I want to get rid of it. Since it is linked to many other attachments, it is not so easy to get rid of it. But if the mind is clear, then you can suppress bad thoughts related to the desire to show off and not let them manipulate you. It is such a wonderful feeling when you are free of that substance, and you become indifferent to worldly fame and profit, and you are filled with good energy. Of course, this process is slow, and you can not get rid of all the bad things immediately, but if you cultivate diligently, you can achieve high standards.

I have realized that this trust is a manifestation of forbearance. As I have to endure in the process. I have to have the patience to carry everything on until the manifestation on the surface also shows itself. It is important that I do not do the tasks as work, but with a righteous attitude and clarity of mind and that I look inwards when there are conflicts. And this half year with all its experiences, has also clearly shown me again that no matter how arduous my life is at the moment, as soon as I do the three things, everything is harmonized and I receive wisdom and serenity. 

From obtaining the Fa to the present, the journey has been full of stumbling blocks. Each step has never been reached without Master's care and empowerment. Cultivation is like rowing against the current. But with Master by our side, what seemed impossible can become possible. When we comply with the Fa, Master can do anything. It is because of compassionate Master that I have been given opportunities to purify myself during this process, so that I can ultimately return home with Master.

All this time Shifu was helping me, by holding my throat and raising part of it so I could speak how He wanted me to speak. Now, he was letting go and letting me do this by myself, without the help, thus I didn’t feel the hand on my throat anymore and it was actually harder to make the right voice. What seems like a "test" might be a blessing from above, and a so-called "blessing" might be the real test.

  As a cultivator, I should not be in contention with an ordinary person. From a cultivation perspective, my competitive mentality arose just because my appointment was postponed. How could I run Tianti Bookstore with such a mindset? Looking inward, I also saw that although I diligently studied the Fa and practiced the exercises every day, when dealing with matters, especially when the other party didn't know I was a Falun Dafa practitioner, I seemed to exempt myself from adhering to Dafa's principles. This was a clear case of not genuinely cultivating.

We are Dafa Dizi and our hearts are devoted to assisting Master. When we truly put Dafa first, help comes to us. This is what we clearly felt because when the Shen Yun tour in Spain ended this year and we returned home suddenly more orders started coming in to our business, my daughter was able to take her exams and got very good grades, and my husband's family has seen that closing the business for 2 weeks didn't hurt us and commented on how nice the Shen Yun commercials looked on TV.

How far was I from enlightenment anyway, when I can't even let go of this hidden "heart of complaint" and these things? Are there other attachments that I had not realized? Was the "heart of grievance" the real attachment, or were there deeper attachments? Can I still cultivate at all, can I even reach the ultimate goal of cultivation? Doubts arose in me for the first time. 

Having obtained the Fa for two years, I am filled with gratitude. I deeply admire those veteran practitioners who started their cultivation journey right after Master first taught the Fa. It was not easy for me to obtain the Fa; I entered when I had no other way. I cherish this final period of the Fa-rectification, knowing that I must diligently cultivate myself during this time.

April 25th 2023 marks 24 years since over 10,000 Falun Gong practitioners held a historic appeal in Beijing for the right to freely practice their belief. The appeal was prompted by a period of growing repression and the arrest of 45 Falun Gong practitioners in the city of Tianjin, raising nationwide concerns about believers’ freedom to practice their faith.

Sofia told practitioners with tears flowing from her eyes, “It really is very sad.” Jenni, on her way to a yoga class said: “You have done a very important thing, thank you for your persistence.”

Chinese New Year 2023 starts on 22nd January 2023. Falun Gong practitioners in different European countries send their greetings to Master Li and wish him a happy Chinese New Year.