During morning practice yesterday, I developed a thought from deep within my heart: "I am a Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple." When this thought came into my mind, I felt that my body, my energy, and my righteous thoughts were all expanding and enlarging. I realized that Teacher was giving me hints and helping me rise to higher levels in my understanding of the Fa and xinxing (character).

This year my unit leader chose another person as group leader, making me understand that it was time for me to let go of this attachment to recognition and self-interest that I should have relinquished a long time ago. However, I still felt disappointed. When I talk about salary and jobs, I am still very into them, just like an ordinary person, and forget that I am a cultivator.

After I heard those words, I didn't warn him, but instead felt happy inside and thought of myself as an attractive person. As I was writing this article, I realized that everything happening around me is a reflection of my cultivation state. I still have the attachment of lust, and it not only interferes with me, but also with fellow practitioners.

Later I started looking within and then realized that I was using my sentimentality to help fellow practitioners, and was doing it just for the sake of doing it, instead of having a clear understanding of the true purpose of making corrections. Not only did fellow practitioners not get to improve themselves, I didn't improve myself either.

If I still felt sleepy, I would kneel down to study the Fa and later practiced the exercises. I slept for only two to three hours every night. Before I went to bed, I asked Teacher, "Master, please wake me up at 5 o'clock in the morning." When it was five o'clock, it seemed that someone was really there pushing me up. During that time, I went to the practice site every morning to teach new practitioners the movements.

Since each fellow practitioner's base is different with varied abilities to enlighten to things, different degrees of diligence, various times of attaining the Fa, having different levels of Fa understanding, and gaining varied cultivation levels, how could I ask others to do exactly what I want with only my own way of thinking and looking at things?

I understand that it is simply impossible to get rid of lust and sexual desire when one holds on to this attachment at the same time. Just like a drug addict, he cannot imagine to get rid of his addiction while indulging himself in the stimulus of drugs. There is only one way of getting rid of the addiction, and that is to stop taking drugs, and keep clear from the drugs both in action and in mind.

My husband doesn't practice Falun Dafa because he is not able to quit drinking alcohol. But he has supported me and my son in cultivation. All these years I have kept telling him the facts about Falun Dafa and our cultivation stories. Now he finally wants to read our materials.

Additionally, a few years ago when I had a little more belief and confidence in Teacher and the Fa, I had a little less irritation and annoyance. Now, since I have truly let go of my attachments, the irritation and annoyance have disappeared. Therefore, I have come to the conclusion that our irritation and annoyance are linked to our hearts, not the external circumstances of our lives.

We need to truly cultivate ourselves from the surface to the heart so that all of our thoughts harmonize in the Fa. If we can achieve this state, we will not feel disappointed or desperate anymore, and would not be attached to human desires.

Before arriving at the detention centre, my husband text-messaged me, "I am having a sick feeling about this. You should hurry away. Listen to me." My hands got sweaty. Seeing my reaction, my mother said, "You'd better go back then." I immediately fled. Looking back, I know that everything happened because of my fear and that I had failed this test yet again.

Because I work during the day, I had to read behind his back at night. My husband usually came home after midnight, drunk. If he saw me reading, he would either swear at me or beat me. I didn't know how to stop it with righteous thoughts, so the swearing and insults became common practice.

Two hours later, when I stood up, a prisoner asked me why a Falun Gong practitioner had such a good attitude. I replied that Falun Gong simply teaches people to be good, and an upright man isn't afraid of anything. One policeman took my words to continue, "Yes, an upright man isn't afraid of anything." The prisoner said emotionally and sincerely, "I will turn a new leaf in the future. I won't do those bad things. I will sell eggs to earn my living after I go back."

One day a practitioner reminded me, "You should learn how to use the computer and print the materials so that you can shoulder some of the workload and reduce your daughter's burden!" After hearing that, I did not feel confident. I asked myself if I was able to learn it. After I considered it again, I realized that thinking this way was wrong, that it was a human thought.

In my efforts to tell people to facts about Falun Gong, I have encountered interference from police or officials several times. There was even a safety issue. I kept righteous thoughts, was not afraid, and was vigilant as well. I was not afraid as long as I was being selfless.

The other practitioner and I immediately knew that it was Teacher using this practitioner's words to remind us, seeing us walking and talking. No wonder we ran into her here. Practitioner B continued, "While walking on the street, don't slink along, we should behave in an open and dignified manner because we are doing the most righteous thing in the universe!"

"Zhen - Shan - Ren - is good" slowly came from my mother's closed lips, and the words "Falun Dafa is good" followed as her lips quivered. Gradually mother was able to speak more distinctly, "Falun Dafa is good," "Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good." Her sunken eyes gradually opened, and she began to regain consciousness.

Just listen, not talk back, not try to defend old ideas or defend myself, but just listen, and try to find what are the true and useful points that practitioners bring up. Even when practitioners become very emotional, even when they say things that are not accurate, I know I can definitely learn some things from what they say, and I can treat it as cultivation.

In 2008, my husband voluntarily withdrew from the CCP. He told me, "I believe Falun Gong is good. However, I want you to practice at home, and not go outside to talk about it." I comforted him, saying that everything would be alright. As long as I listen to and follow Master's words, no one would dare to hurt me

The 610 Office once asked neighbours nearby to report to the police when they saw me go back home. But my neighbours knew the truth, and they helped me. So although the local officials made several attempts to persecute me, they all ended in vain.

We pointed out each other's shortcomings, and looked inward to identify attachments. Within several days, we improved rapidly. At the beginning, our purpose was to help A, but we all benefited. From this experience, I enlightened that helping a fellow practitioner is a process of improving oneself.

Recently I had been paying a lot of attention to real estate listings and job postings. In my mind, I was trying to figure out how to live a better life. As such, I failed to "reach a state in which you have such things but have no heart for them

My understanding is that we do not pursue the quantity of people quitting the CCP
organizations; rather, we should move people with the kindness and forbearance that we obtain from cultivating Dafa, so that they can be saved.

I realized that it was time to calm down and study the Fa, and to look within. This process wastes a lot of time. Such dilatory phenomena manifest in many ways. For example, when I don't feel right, I decide to take a break. I wait until I've recovered well, then I start to do things; or, now I do not feel comfortable, so I do not need to practice the exercise until I feel comfortable.

After becoming a practitioner, I really felt that my view of the world changed. In life or work, I always act as a true Dafa disciple and try to do everything well. In the workplace, I do not complain and never compete or fight for profits.

Wherever we go and whatever we do, we should keep the Fa in mind. We must motivate ourselves to do the three things well using the Fa and not waste a minute or a second. Since the remaining time is for Dafa practitioners to rectify the Fa and save sentient beings, we should strictly follow a high standard in the Fa. Every thought should be on the Fa.

The root cause is that I had failed to understand the essence of cultivation. I had held onto humanness with one hand and onto divinity with the other. I was afraid of losing my interests. I was accustomed to regarding any unpleasant things as bad. Therefore, I tried to do things carefully and perfectly in order to avoid any unpleasant events.

Practitioners are different from non-practitioners. Our method of solving problems is to look inward. Every problem or obstacle we run into is because we are not aligned with the Fa requirements with our understanding, attitude, or our actions on some aspects or some events.

My understanding of "cultivation of mind" is that we must not have any improper thoughts, no thoughts of lust and desire. Furthermore, we need to relinquish the attachments to the glances of admiration, the feelings of "joy" when one is being flattered or praised and the thoughts of showing off in front of those of the opposite sex.

When I first opened the Minghui/Clearwisdom website, I saw the Dafa website setup by Falun Dafa practitioners, I saw Master Li's photo of quietly watching the world from amidst the mountains after leaving New York following July 20th, 1999. I became so excited that tears ran down my face. I held both hands together and said to Teacher: "Thank you, Teacher!"

My son used to be against my cultivation and now he tries to dedicate some time to recite Hong Yin together with me. My nephew, who used to be a naughty child, became a good boy after practicing the cultivation. He works hard in school and is much more mature than before.

"We came here to save you. You only think about making money and your life with your family, without knowing that you are all marked by the beast. We are here to help remove those marks. But first you should remember Falun Dafa is good. Zhen-Shan-Ren is good! If you can accept that you will be happy forever."

When I was arrested, the police deceived my husband with lies about Falun Gong and he attempted to force me to write a guarantee statement in a brutal manner. He could not coerce me, however, and instead, I measured myself with the standard of the Fa; even my fear of him vanished.

Recently, we studied Teacher's earlier lectures in our Fa study group. When Teacher was asked shallow, sometimes even ridiculous questions, he patiently answered them one by one. I could not help but sigh, "Teacher really has patience." After careful thinking, I realized that behind the patience is Teacher's great compassion. I understood that impatience comes about due to the lack of compassion.

When I read articles about fellow practitioners' righteous thoughts and deeds, I felt bright in my mind. Being able to keep in touch with the Minghui website I felt that I was able to keep in touch with fellow practitioners and with our whole body; I did not feel like a lonely particle.

In this human world, no matter what feeling of gratitude or resentment we have towards others, we should end it in this golden Fa-rectification period. Although we have some predestined relationships, we should measure everything with the Fa, and compassionately resolve the issues.

I think that wherever we are, in whatever situation, we can somehow let the people around us know what they do not already know. If you do not have Dafa bookmarks, it is easy to print up a pretty business card with a short message about Dafa and the web address of falundafa.org to carry with you.

A person with a serious illness cannot stop thinking about the illness. What is in his or her thoughts is just the fear. Are there those kinds of practitioners among us? The things you are attached to every day are just the things of everyday people. What you think about are gaining things for yourself, and you haven't let go of them.

Since I started practicing Falun Gong, I have conducted myself according to the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. When I encounter a conflict, I look inward to find my shortcomings and remove them. Teacher has purified my body and my illnesses have completely disappeared.

Later my friend told me, "You have already taken two years worth of medicine. You did not get better, and this shows that this medicine is not effective for you. You might want to try stopping the medicine and see what happens." In that way, I stopped taking the medication and got well very quickly.

Whenever a problem surfaced, whether it be in the workplace or at home, I always rushed to resolve it or quickly finish the job. Although I knew that everything I encountered carried factors to remove my attachment, I didn't grasp the opportunity to improve my Xinxing (heart and mind nature, character).

This week I was no longer that busy, but I had the thought of still letting practitioner A prepare this week's materials so I could read the Fa and make up for the inadequacy of my Fa study in the past; this was a selfish thought. It was this selfish thought that had perhaps caused me to be unable to get onto the website.

There was a practitioner who hid his copy of Zhuan Falun under his mattress, only to see the authorities confiscate it. Later he realized that hiding the book under his mattress was equivalent to laying on it, which was disrespectful of Dafa, and that was an excuse for him to lose the book.

Today, I have come to realize that it was not me who was capable of doing that. It is the Fa that rectifies the cosmos and eliminates the evil. It is all done by Master and the power of the Fa. The only thing I had was strong righteous thoughts. In the past, since I had a strong attachment of validating myself, my righteous thoughts were not pure. As a result, the power of the Fa was restricted and not displayed fully.

I realize now that when there are conflicts among fellow practitioners, originally it was Teacher's arrangement for us to improve our mind nature. Being attached to right or wrong is in fact from our human mentality and it is an attachment of zealotry.

Moreover, in order to produce good quality materials and resolve any problems there may be with the equipment, I need to constantly look inward, eliminate attachments, rectify myself, and send forth righteous thoughts directed at the equipment and the production site.

I want to prove with my own experience that studying the Fa not only does not use too much time, but it can also enlighten one's mind and increase the efficiency of doing regular schoolwork. One's mind will reach higher levels and shake loose the bad things from ordinary people, and his/her level will be elevated.

Looking back at these two incidents that moved my heart so profoundly, I used human thoughts first and then remembered to ask Master for help. I realize that my cultivation is still not solid. When will I remember to ask Master and Dafa first?

I think that at times when I work on Dafa projects, I do them with an impure heart. Other times, my incorrect thinking was possibly guided by my desire for fame and gain. But the thoughts are usually fleeting so I never thought that such devious ideas really could exist so I denied it completely.

When I was still bedridden, she came to visit me every day, sent righteous thoughts and practiced the fifth exercise. She played Master's lectures to me with a cassette recorder. When I felt a little bit better, she took me to group Fa-study. She also helped me a lot in my ordinary life. I am really touched by all the unselfish and sincere help from fellow practitioners. I could feel the strength and warmth of everybody as a whole.