When I was still bedridden, she came to visit me every day, sent righteous thoughts and practiced the fifth exercise. She played Master's lectures to me with a cassette recorder. When I felt a little bit better, she took me to group Fa-study. She also helped me a lot in my ordinary life. I am really touched by all the unselfish and sincere help from fellow practitioners. I could feel the strength and warmth of everybody as a whole.

Studying the Fa isn't only reading and reciting the Fa; the main point is to do things based on the Fa, eliminate bad habits, eliminate selfishness, and cultivate away all attachments--this is real cultivation.

Through studying Master's recent articles, I came to understand that, at present, Dafa disciples have two main priorities: one is to cultivate ourselves well and the other is to save sentient beings. These two things are closely related to each other and are also one body.

Since mother obtained Dafa, she carries very few notions, and has become even more pure. Master encourages her when she is diligent, and she can see the flowers and trees in other dimensions. When she reads the Fa, she can see that the characters are moving and changing colours.

Little by little, I started to follow what Teacher says in Zhuan Falun. I learned that cultivation practice is about returning to one's true self and eliminating selfishness. I gradually let go of my attachment to fame, self-interest and sentimentality and am no longer fighting over fame or self-interest.

During this time of grief, an old classmate visited me. He told me that his sister practiced Falun Gong. Before, she had all sorts of illnesses, which disappeared after she began practicing Falun Gong. When I heard that, I saw the light.

With tears in his eyes, he said, "How can I thank you guys? You don't want a penny for doing such a big thing." I said, "Your best thanks will be that you do well in your job and remember to listen to your conscience." He promised he would. When I walked him downstairs to the front door, I told him to remember, "Falun Dafa is good, Falun Gong is being persecuted."

I have understood from the Fa that being Fa-rectification Dafa disciples, our acknowledging everyday people's thoughts, notions, and attachments is like a cultivator's reading crooked qigong books and then incurring animal or spirit possessions, after which demons would come to interfere with our doing the three things.

Later I looked inward and found that I had very strong fear, so I decided to put the informational brochures in the offices of my teachers. The next day when I came to school, I saw the teachers in the office all reading the letter together. I felt happy for those teachers who have understood the truth of Falun Gong.

My family environment was also my cultivation environment, and I required myself to meet the standard of a practitioner in my every word and action. Sometimes it was not easy to pass the test when there was a conflict. However, I looked inside myself afterwards, and rectified myself according to the Fa.

Fearing to offend others, in my understanding, is a fear of not being loved or accepted if I hurt the other person. But what is truly hurt is not the being itself, but the post-natally acquired notions. What helps is the understanding that what I really want is found within myself, thus I am detached from "the other" in seeking validation, approval, love.

Everything in the human world is illusions. And yet, human beings are lost in it and are enjoying themselves. We practitioners tend to pay attention to getting rid of attachments to fame and self-interest, but neglect to get rid of our sentimentality. I believe that it is important to not let our sentimentality invade our thoughts.

The root cause is that I wanted to be superior to others and receive praise. However, if everyone praised me, how could I improve myself without any troubles? Why did I receive so many complaints and irritations? Isn't it because I felt ignored and I tended to complain about others?

My understanding is that the purpose of looking inward is to apply the Fa to find out our own attachments and anything that is in conflict with the Fa. Generally, when we look at others we should focus on their strengths and not their weaknesses, because the Fa requires us to create harmony and not conflict.

"I just feel so great, so pleased. I hope to maintain this feeling. I love to spend as much of my time on it as I can. And I love to do anything I am able to. I love to practice Falun Gong; I love to come to the city to participate in its activities. All this makes me feel amazing, and I am filled with positive energy. I have a different life than before."

Why do I have such a hard time getting rid of so many human notions? It is because my base is among humans. I still pursue fame, profit and affection. Even though I am cultivating and getting rid of attachments, I only solved the problem at surface, not at its source.

Compassion is an enlightened being's nature. Therefore, practitioners should cultivate compassion. When we encounter issues, we should utilize this compassion to resolve the conflict. We should treat sentient beings compassionately, no matter whether they are kind or evil.

At work my attachment to personal interest was reinforced. My jealousy of co-workers who had a good performance record grew stronger and stronger. From time to time I felt resentful of not getting what I had worked for. I still didn't realize that computer games had stimulated my deep-hidden attachments to personal gain, and that my jealousy, zealotry and competitive mentality had come along.

When these folks want to thank me, I always tell them that they don't need to thank me, and that I offer help because I practice Falun Gong. Before becoming a Falun Gong practitioner, I did not have such a compassionate heart. Even if I did think about offering help, I would not have had the strength to follow through.

On that paper was written the lyrics: "If you cannot see celestial beings in heaven, then do see the spectacle on the ground? Come to visit Pingtang County, 'Heaven will soon eliminate the CCP' is just in front of your eyes." He stared at it for a while and didn't say anything.

The mentality of looking down on others subconsciously is manifested in different ways. For example, I like to point out this and that about the way people do things instead of looking at it from the perspective of the Fa. I am not considerate of others, nor do I put myself in other people's shoes.

During those several days, all the leaders of Armed Forces Department, local police, street committee, leaders of our courtyard and my work place, came to my home to exert pressure on me to give up my belief. Even my husband's boss stopped by.

We said we were going to some relatives' to save people. They asked what we meant by saving people, so we told them that withdrawing the Chinese Communist Party's organizations could save people. They were kind enough to give us directions and said, "We don't want to delay your work of saving people."

I later realized that I was not solid enough in my understanding of the Fa and also had some attachment of pursuing benefits. There are no role models in cultivation. Our Teacher told us to take the Fa as our guide. Why should I look at what others do at a critical moment? I even tried to find excuses to cover up my attachment.

He has overcome the attachments to fame, fortune and emotion. During the Fa-rectification period he has done more than many younger practitioners. He often says, "The greatest personal matter is a small matter. The smallest matter in saving a sentient being is a great matter." He has been conducting himself this way for years and has been doing the three things well.

"Compassion comes from a person's cultivation, and it's not something that's acted out; it comes from deep inside, and it's not something done to show others. It's something that exists eternally, and it doesn't change with the passage of time or changes in circumstances." ("Teaching the Fa at the 2003 Washington DC Fa Conference")

During Fa study and cultivation, practitioners should change their ordinary people's thoughts and reference the Fa to correct every thought. If a thought is not in keeping with the Fa, just get rid of it right away. This is the process of upgrading oneself in cultivation. I found that many of the thoughts and questions in my mind were a result of human notions and attachments.

I would like to say to all those fellow practitioners who, like I was, are still attached to ordinary human society, wealth, and fame: "You need to be vigilant! You cannot let the evil make you more attached or let them seize your attachments and make you unable to extricate yourself."

After practicing Falun Gong for more than 10 years, I still harbour one old bad habit, that is, gossiping about other practitioners' shortcomings behind their back. For example, this practitioner has the attachment of showing off, and another practitioner has the attachment of jealousy, struggling, or fear, etc. I am even excited when talking about such topics.

In the past, others often praised me regarding some specific things, but now this comment went so far as to concern the fundamental things of a Dafa disciple. Is it because I have thought of myself too highly, or have I developed a too strong sense of self-satisfaction? I looked within and was shocked that I truly have such problem.

Master did not say specifically in either Zhuan Falun nor in any of His lectures that Dafa disciples should not get married. He only emphasized that Dafa disciples should be strict with themselves and not engage in improper relationships.

In order to have more time to study the Fa, I sleep less. After sending forth righteous thoughts at 9 p.m. each night, I go to sleep and get up at 11:50 p.m. And after sending forth righteous thoughts at midnight, I study the Fa until early morning exercises. In so doing, I have more time in the day to clarify the truth and save people.

Later, Zhuan Falun also showed me the inner meanings of the Fa-rectification. This helped me understand another principle: Fa study is not just a ritual; we must truly calm our minds to study the Fa. We must study the Fa with all of our hearts to open the door to the Fa's inner meanings. Only then will we truly merge into the Fa.

With reciting the Fa continuously, my mind has become more and more empty, more and more pure, and has fewer and fewer distractions. When I recite Fa now, I have almost no distractions and can calm down immediately. The Fa also unfolds in front of me continuously. I melt myself into the Fa, assimilate to Dafa and elevate myself continuously! Thus, I do the three things better and better!

When I began to read Zhuan Falun again, I quickly found a job, and my daughter's attitude towards me suddenly changed. I began to see the relationship between my personal cultivation and the external environment. Especially after the following two events.

Of course, in the early days of the persecution in 1999, we were not mature, and it was a natural course of cultivation. But now Master has taught the Fa to us thoroughly, so we cannot stay in the same cultivation state as in 1999.

A person who once had his coffin prepared, waiting to die, is now able to do all kinds of chores, and looks much younger. Upon seeing the miraculous changes in my brother-in-law, my eldest sister, also came back to practice Falun Dafa.

Every practitioner has attachments. Can attachments be eliminated via verbal abuse or violence? Absolutely not. If a person fails to tell right from wrong and has to use coercion to have people submit to him, those people will not actually eliminate their attachments.

My son continued, "Did you not repeat the Fa all the time during group studies? Didn't all the practitioners ask you questions? You acted as teacher for many years. Others like to listen to you. However, they gradually came to rely on you, which made you have some attachments to vanity and showing off. That's why you haven't cultivated speech well."

It's unavoidable to have some depressed times in our cultivation, such as physically not feeling well, or having no reasonable explanations for doubts or a depressed mood. However, at such moments, we should actively control our state instead of being controlled by "a bad cultivation state."

Sometimes I would steal a brief look when he was practicing the exercises. I felt that those movements looked very nice. My husband also asked me to watch the video "Travelling Between Heaven and Earth." Though I didn't watch it carefully, it touched me very much, and I was no longer against my husband's beliefs.

After July 20, 1999, the Chinese Communist Party started persecuting Falun Gong practitioners. People around me often asked me if I was still practicing. I always used my own personal experience to explain to them that Falun Dafa is good. Not only was I still practicing, but also spoke out about Falun Gong and the persecution.

One day during group Fa study, I mentioned that I wanted to learn how to use a computer so I that could read the Minghui/Clearwisdom website, but that I was afraid that I would never be able to learn it because I was too old and illiterate. Everyone encouraged me,

"Even when in your daily life you pass by people so quickly that you don't have a chance to talk to them, you should still leave them with your compassion and kindness. Don't lose those who should be saved, especially those with predestined connections." ("Teaching the Fa at the 2003 Atlanta Fa Conference")

One morning my husband saw that I was doing the exercises. He was rude to me and complained, but I ignored him and continued to do the meditation. He started to kick me, but still I did not move. He decided he could not stop me, so he left

At that moment I felt that the day grew brighter, as I had found the root cause of my problem. I realized that when studying the Fa, I didn't have a pure mind and it was not genuine Fa study! As practitioners, we must be genuine and earnest when studying the Fa and only by doing that can we truly study the Fa well.

I felt that I was wronged and was very upset. I had spent all my energy writing many articles to explain the truth about Falun Gong and to save sentient beings. I risked everything to do Dafa work and I contributed greatly. How could this practitioner say that I was following the old forces arrangements?

Regardless of where I am, I talk to people about Dafa and about withdrawing from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations.
After running into an acquaintance on the street, I try to chat with the person in a friendly way and then clarify the truth to her. During the process, all I wish for is good future for that person, nothing else.

The elderly practitioner asked in bemusement, "Why is there no reaction on your part?" A practitioner replied, "Over the past nine years, not a day has gone by without the evil CCP arresting people. This time around, it has only found another excuse. As Fa-rectification Dafa practitioners, why should we fear it?"

If we reach this realm and have compassionate and selfless hearts that persist in saving people, their bad sides will be restricted in our energy field. How can people's knowing sides not be moved and not accept the truth? At that time perhaps just saying one sentence is enough to save a person, and it doesn't matter if you are eloquent or not.